February 2012
5 posts
I don’t know how to find what I need.
That worries me.
the cost of salvation
I figured something out last Sunday morning that I’ve learned and forgotten before, and will probably forget and learn again. Good relationships with people—and any relationship with God—requires that thing which I absolutely refuse to do: be vulnerable.
It makes sense that my friendships would be hollow and superficial if I do not let people know what truly concerns me, but I’m not...
Watchedwardspoonhands:
frezned:
overtheunderpass:
Idunno.
I reckon “idk” is the best for that. It’s not phonetically the same, but it represents the same proportion of less effort. You can’t be bothered saying all the letters of “I don’t know”; you can’t be bothered typing all the letters.
Fascinating question. I disagree wholeheartedly with Frezned’s suggestion of IDK. IDK doesn’t hit it at...
Brain Dump 2012/02/13
I haven’t been writing at all lately, and while I sincerely doubt it is of any importance to my readers, it means something to me. Like much of my behavior, I would be fooling myself if I claimed to understand why, but I’ve made guesses. Remember when Xanga was a thing? Wait, what? It’s still a thing? Anyway, I posted fairly frequently when I first got it, and I’ve written...
“Provocation doesn’t make me ill-tempered: it only shows me how...”
– C. S. Lewis
January 2012
9 posts
“You choose what to think about. And you may not feel that way every day, but the...”
– John Green, on The Fault in Our Stars at the Tour de Nerdfighting Event in Austin, Texas (21 January 2012)
“Make good stuff, then make it easy for people to buy it. There’s your...”
– Jonathan Coulton is wise.
http://www.jonathancoulton.com/2012/01/21/megaupload/
(via neil-gaiman)
Resolution #2:
Write, recite, and record a poem.
Outrageously Honest: We have church backwards. It... →
selinalynn:
We have church backwards. It is not a place to go and put our best foot forward and display our Sunday best. It is a place to admit our brokenness and accept grace and mercy.
Or as Hans kung says:
“It deserves neither God’s mercy nor men’s rust. The church must constantly be aware that its…
Maybe it’s better thus year not to ask “Do I want..?” but “Do I want to be the kind of person who..?”
I wish I were going to HEAVY AND LIGHT.
What I wouldn’t give to go to a place and be in a room with other people who share my struggle and my pain. For things to make sense for just one night. But mostly to remember that things matter, and that I get to be a part of that. That I’m invited to be a part of that, if I will.
So, though I’m a couple days late, what if my new year’s resolution was to do things that...
December 2011
1 post
John Green's tumblr: Why We Hate Tim Tebow →
fishingboatproceeds:
It’s not really about his religiosity, or even the way he uses his fame to evangelize. People, including me, are put off by Tebow because he is SINCERE, and cynical people dismiss all sincere worldviews, whether secular or religious.
Tebow exposes our cynicism. He is unafraid to care deeply and…
November 2011
8 posts
super evil villain
The stories I knew growing up featured villains that were simply lumpy, body-shaped hate, not real people. They were completely irredeemable. When the story ends, you want them to lose, and you want them to lose really, really, hard, whatever that would mean for that story.
I don’t really know what an enemy would look like in real life. Sure there are people we don’t like, but an...
Some thoughts on marriage.
This week, I am thankful for the marriage of my friend to his new wife. May God bless them and keep them.
I used to think that once you got to know somebody very well, and you loved them completely, you get married and start spending a life together. Love, then marriage. Now, I think I had that backward. I know my girlfriend, Corinne, very well, I think, and she knows me. But what I know in five...
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Understanding is the only Inviolable Skill
edwardspoonhands:
I was in a fancy restaurant in Spokane Washington when I realized it. I had, in front of me, a gelatinous block of wheat gluten and nutritional yeast that cost $22 and beyond that, a gorgeous stained glass window that was probably installed in the building more than 100 years ago. On my walk through Spokane, I had seen a great number of things that surprised me. Intricate...
efflorescencelassitude:
“I should like to bury something precious in every place where I’ve been happy and then, when I’m old and ugly and miserable, I could come back and dig it up and remember.”
— Evelyn Waugh
“Does justice ever find you?
Do the wicked never lose?
Is there any other song...”
– “The Blues” by Switchfoot
“… Or we can hold onto the comforting notion that any one of us might be...”
– Community
October 2011
6 posts
“The only persons who seem to have nothing to do with the education of the...”
– G.K. Chesterton in What’s Wrong with the World (via gkchestertonquote)
“God, defeat me with your goodness.”
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How much perspective changes in only a few years.
The things you don’t understand until it’s far too late.
The unforgiving permanence of the past.
Hey, Avi
I re-enabled comments via Disqus on this blog. It’s not the prettiest solution, but it’ll do. Sorry it took me so long to do this.
September 2011
13 posts
The problem of being interesting
You may or may not know that I, with a couple of friends from school, tried video blogging. We had it arranged so that our channel would post three times a week, so that each of us would only have to make one video a week. That seemed doable. I don’t know if we were any good. I enjoyed doing it, and I think it was a good exercise, but it didn’t make it past summer break. I learned a...
“When I look up at the heavens, which your fingers made,
and see the moon and...”
– Psalm 8:3-5
“People who blindly go through life too busy or indifferent to ask hard questions...”
– (via kierstenmh)
efflorescencelassitude:
When we hold each other, in the darkness, it doesn’t make the darkness go away. The bad things are still out there. The nightmares still walking. When we hold each other we feel not safe, but better. “It’s all right” we whisper, “I’m here, I love you.” and we lie there, “I’ll never leave you.” For just a moment or two the darkness doesn’t seem so bad.
"Last night I could not sleep/I thought about what...
Oh, to feel alive again. I wish I could focus tonight. I have two papers to write. My mind is really fighting me tonight, though. It knows I’ve ignored these things for far too long already. But aren’t I doing the responsible thing? Isn’t this the right thing? Engineering is a real job after all. Writing and singing are hobbies and pipe dreams. Sure, some people make it work—but...
Tell her she was made to dance in white dresses: I... →
efflorescencelassitude:
I have these dreams, some happy some sad. But they always seem to touch me in some way and are always beautiful. This was one I had last night about me and my sweet boyfriend.
” We were married and had two beautiful daughters and a son, we had been married long enough to where our son was 20 and…
a short story →
I made an attempt at a short story on my blog, Project: .
Church can be strange for me sometimes. I step into a chapel I’ve not been to before and feel at home. I hear a pipe organ and I’m at peace.
But it turns me into a little kid, too. On the outside, I speak articulately. Ask me to pray and I choke on my tongue. On the outside, I am confident. But in front of God, my shell of feigned confidence, tough as dragon scales, cracks open like...
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“You know, I’ll tell you something. The majority of domestic disputes we get...”
– Officer Spencer, Washington D.C. Police (via selinalynn)
No Going Back
This is just something I scrawled out quickly in class last week:
There is no going back. There is never any going back. My creative writing teacher wrote Aristotle’s stages of dramatic development on the board, graphing (if you will) the emotion of the story rising from situation to climax and down again to resolution. My elementary school english teacher drew it symmetrically, like a...
August 2011
16 posts
“A storm rolls in over the hills and a brochure describing a portrait offer gets...”
– from “The Wavemaker Falters” by George Saunders
Haiku.
Another haiku, And I still don’t understand What the big deal is.
Five, seven and five— It’s just about syllables? I prefer limericks.
efflorescencelassitude:
I’ve read a few posts about how women should be able to do what they want with their bodies, they should in fact be able to “do what they want with it” “it” being the child.
I have a few problems with this, one being that “it” is a life. (most will argue at what stage does a embryo becomes a being) I obviously believe that a child is a child at conception. It very soon...
“Some days it seems to me like the purpose of life is to convert energy into...”
– Hank Green
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“The only way to end a quarrel is to get on to both sides of it. … We need not so...”
– G.K. Chesterton in The Illustrated London News June 25, 1932 (via gkchestertonquote)
“Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and...”
– Mark Twain (via kierstenmh)
My brother is on his way to the airport. And I don’t cry often, but I’m crying now.
I’m sad. I barely got to see him this summer, and I’m going to miss him a lot. It’s not going to be the same without him. It feels good, though, to have something worth crying about. I’m a little bit happy any time I get to use this emotional overflow valve because it means I...